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I Thought I Was Fine, But I've Since Lost My Mind

by Rebel In The Morning

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1.
Need 04:43
Want is a different thing than have and I'm wanting you so bad, it's driving me mad Need is a word I should not speak, because my life is fine only I still need you with me And it's not that I can't live without you, cliches are a bore It's the fact that you don't want me that just makes me want you more Life catches up to you in time and before I cross that line, I'd like someone by my side And it's not that I can't live without you, cliches are a bore It's the fact that you don't want me that just makes me want you more it's not that I can't live without you, cliches are a bore It's the fact that you don't want me that just makes me want you more
2.
Wind-Up God 04:38
I’m not your Life-Star helicopter flying you to bed I’m not the given information to fill inside your head Keep praying to your wind-up God I’m sure he’ll answer soon And you’ve got a back-up plan I assume? I’m not your holy father wrapping you up inside my arms I’m not your ghostly lover keeping your warm and safe from harm Keep praying to your wind-up God I’m sure he’ll swing by soon And you’ve got a back-up plan I assume? Don’t you, I really hope so, for the sake of you, I really do I’m not your part-time love, kissing you when you’re feeling down I’m not your ocean water, dragging you back when you should drown Keep praying to your wind-up God I’m sure he’ll swing by soon And you’ve got a back-up plan I assume? Don’t you, I really hope so, for the sake of you, I really do You can make it out alright, I won’t be there every time
3.
Witch Doctor 05:07
Lady you’re my witch doctor who’ll jump my bones when I come home On a Tuesday night, drunk on feeling in love I want you to soothe my soul and paint my face with your sacred oil We can dance all night, naked as when we were born And when death comes, I’ll be there I’ll be waiting for him to take you wherever you go Lady you’re my missing piece, the piece I need to feel complete I don’t care what it takes I just want to feel close to you I want you to bathe my skin in the same mind-set I found you in Let’s forget what we came for and throw all our baggage away And when death comes, I’ll be there I’ll be waiting for him to take you wherever you go And when death comes, you’ll know it truth Cause you’ll see me waiting beside you wherever we go Lady you’re my witch doctor who’ll jump my bones when I come home On a Tuesday night, drunk on feeling in love And when death comes, I’ll be there I’ll be waiting for him to take you wherever you go And when death comes, you’ll know it truth Cause you’ll see me waiting beside you wherever we go
4.
Shuffling 03:46
I keep on shuffling my feet like we’re in reverse Stuck on the seventh time we tried I know I call ‘em how they are but this time we’re cursed Stuck on the seventh suicide It’ll only make it worse, it’ll only make it worse I’m not talking about just you and I It’ll only make it worse, it’ll only make it worse I’m not talking about just you and I I keep on my moving as if I’ve been institutionalized Stuck on my seventh in and out You keep on moving as if you don’t know to stay or hide Stuck on your seventh time around It’ll only make it worse, it’ll only make it worse I’m not talking about just you and I It’ll only make it worse, it’ll only make it worse I’m not talking about just you and I So gone, you know we’re gone, hanging in the door way
The smell had nearly gone away, by the time they found us yesterday
5.
Call off the dogs, because I know you weren’t wrong I know you love me Jane, but these feelings ain’t the same Call all you wan’t, cause I know your dreams will haunt I know you love me Jane, but I can’t just change my way Quit caving in, cause you know the shit I’m in I know you love me Jane, but these feelings ain’t the same I’m not the keeper of you I’m not a fan of the things that you do I’m not the pallbearer’s song Sang in tune after you’re gone Call off you’re curse, cause the heat is getting worse I know you’re up in arms, but I never meant you harm I’m not the keeper of you I’m not a fan of the things that you do I’m not the pallbearer’s song Sang in tune after you’re gone I’m not the keeper of you I’m not a fan of the things that you do I’m not the pallbearer’s song Sang in tune after you’re gone
6.
Funny? 04:50
I’m in the middle of total mental break down, I asked my oldest friend does it seem like I’m making this up he said no I said good cause I’m not he said great I said fine I’m incoherent to the point where I can’t sit down, I had to have a talk with my left and my right brain, told them to get their act together Is it funny, the way I’m going under? Do you laugh, every time I drown? I’m in the middle of a total fucking nightmare, I’m getting chased around all over by some kind of joker, he’s got it our for me I guess But if it’s all in my dreams then surreal and I can’t cut the feeling, starting to believe in the things that I’m seeing, it’s going around Is it funny, the way I’m going under? Do you laugh, every time I drown? Is it funny, the way I’m going under? Do you laugh, every time I drown? Is it funny, is it funny, is it funny, is it funny? I’m in the middle of a total lack of interest, I swear to god I’m falling asleep mid-sentence, I can’t get my self dressed, I’m falling apart They say it’s all in my head but I don’t know if I trust what they’re telling me, take this with water and see a psychiatrist he’ll get you straightened up nice Is it funny, the way I’m going under? Do you laugh, every time I drown? Is it funny, the way I’m going under? Do you laugh, every time I drown? Is it funny, is it funny, is it funny, is it funny? Is it funny, is it funny, is it funny, is it funny?
7.
Must I Speak 03:52
Must I speak of the devil and his shaky knees when heaven calls on me to take him down a size Must I speak on this level in your company when you fall on me and fold into my thighs You know I’m with you, and you know I care But leave it a lone girl, there’s some things I can’t share Must I speak of my demons and the way they fell, you know I hide them well and all but I’m still changed Must I speak of my reasons, I’d rather not tell, you know I went through hell and all if that’s okay You know I’m with you, and you know I care But leave it a lone girl, there’s some things I can’t share You know I’m with you, and you know I care But leave it a lone girl, there’s some things I can’t share You know I’m with you, and you know I care But leave it a lone girl, there’s some things I can’t share You know I’m with you, and you know I care But leave it a lone girl, there’s some things I can’t share
8.
Lady in black, do you want to be, my reason to live, my reason to breathe Lady in white, though you know me well, there’re things you can’t see, there’re things I can’t tell Lady in black, you know my deepest tune, the blood in my veins, it runs straight through you Lady in white, you don’t know I’m holding back, I’d sing you my song but you’d think I was sick After all I’m only made of what I am, you can change your mind but you can never change the man Lady in black, we share a common ground, the thoughts that we think, are connected some how Lady in white, I know we’ve got history, but I’m fading away and soon you won’t recognize me Lady in black, I croon in my softest howl, we’re one in the same, for even the purist turn foul Lady in white, there’s no more connection there, no words to be had, a friendship left bare After all I’m only made of what I am, you can change your mind but you can never change the man After all I’ve still got a soul in me, you can hear my words but you can never see what I see Lady in black, do you want to be, my reason to live, my reason to breathe Lady in white, though you know me well, there’re things you can’t see, there’re things I can’t tell After all I’m only made of what I am, you can change your mind but you can never change the man After all I’ve still got a soul in me, you can hear my words but you can never see what I see After all I’m only made of what I am, you can change your mind but you can never change the man After all I’ve still got a soul in me, you can hear my words but you can never see what I see
9.
I Won't Lose 05:21
Somebody somewhere is calling my name, the face is a blur but the voice is the same Somebody somewhere is screaming out loud, I know it’s me that they’re screaming about And with a hip ball change I fall into a memory, I’m constantly dreaming of you I keep my mind ahead of me, ‘cause I know it’s one thing I won’t lose I won’t lose, I won’t lose, I won’t lose, I won’t lose Somebody somewhere is deep in a dream, I can feel in my bones that they’re dreaming of me Somebody somewhere is calling my name, the face is a blur but the voice is the same And with a hip ball change I fall into a memory, I’m constantly dreaming of you I keep my mind ahead of me, ‘cause I know it’s one thing I won’t lose I fall into a memory, I’m constantly dreaming of you I keep my mind ahead of me, ‘cause I know it’s one thing I won’t lose I won’t lose, I won’t lose, I won’t lose, I won’t lose I won’t lose, I won’t lose, I won’t lose, I won’t lose

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I Thought I Was Fine, But I've Since Lost My Mind:

The second self-recorded/produced album by Rebel In The Morning(Jon Searles). A slightly conceptual album, in the sense that all of the songs pertain to either the idea of a loss of another person or the loss of one's mind.

All songs written and recorded by Jon Searles.

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released August 21, 2014

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